Thursday, March 15, 2007
Okay. Whatever that you see here from the next paragraph onwards is meant for only one person, but yes, you people can read it too if you want.
_____, I'm really really very irritated by your behaviour, blog posts and all. I really dont understand why these kind of words would come out of your mouth. Although I havent seen you in a long time, but I'm still pretty sure that I love you all the same and treat you like a bestie, a sister. I can feel the distance between the both of us increasing as the days go by.
Why cant you understand that there are so many people that you can call, talk to in your times of need? When you are depressed, you always forget that there is this group of friends that will never pang seh you, no matter how long you've disappeared from church. You also forget that God is always there for you, and ultimately you decide whether you want Him in your life or not. I really cannot believe that you are at this stage of life now.
I never opposed to your relationships, but I never encouraged and approved of them either. As your friend, I believe I do have the right to understand you, but not approve of what you do. In actual fact, I didnt approve because I was afraid and apprehensive that you would end up in exactly this stage that you are in now. This horrible pathetic stage. I believe that healthy BGRs should only happen when you are mentally and emotionally mature enough, and I thought you had the same thoughts as me too. Until that day that I found out you had a bf.
I am getting so frustrated that I cant concentrate on my jian bao. But who cares. I need to vent.
Maybe it's due to your rebelling that you decided to do this. I agree that your parents arent exactly the best ones that you can have, but you as a daughter must learn to appreciate them. I know I should be practising what I preach, and the thing is, I'm trying to. When I saw photos of you two together in the beginning, I was pretty convinced that you were happy the way you were then. But now, I really regret putting most of my trust in that guy.
Oh man, I'm becoming more like a mother hen. But you dont know how worried I get when I read your blog. Your posts are full of depressing words that I dont even want to read. You're just ruining your life like this. Counting the number of days that he has left you? That is maybe one of the most childish things that is in my dictionary. Why not you count the number of friends you have that actually love you like you're our one and only? Why not you think of how many people that treat you like you're special? Why not you count how many days there are to the next time you see us? Why not?
If you do really read this, I suggest that you go and reflect. I highly encourage you to come back to church. This is where all your friends are. This is where all the love is. We all love you like there's nothing else to love. Really.
See the beautiful night sky? It's filled with our never-ending love for you. God loves you even more than what the universe could hold. <333
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On a brighter and lighter note, I realised my blogskin is really darn pink! I shall go look for a NOT SO PINK one! XD
melodycopyrighted
6:23 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Okay! I came back from SLC yesterday... But I'm only blogging today cos I slept FIFTEEN HOURS! XD Yes. That is true. =D I broke my own record haha. So anyway I shall start on my recount of SLC!
On the first day there (Friday), I was pretty excited lah. Cos well the Camp Chief was really cool and my trainer (OP!) was fun haha! Yep so had team bonding first! Group 21 is officially THE BOMB! (BOOM!) So we were trying to balance on that big metal platform? Yep and I think our record of 8 seconds was pretty okay... I mean it's good for first timers! But I enjoyed the one on the tree trunk more cos we had to really trust Claire and Ethel for support! Aiyah it was just FUN!
Then we had Challenge Valley! Which was quite good! I enjoyed the sliding into the milo pool! Cos yeah it's fun lah! And Cal and me found out that Nanxuezhang with her specs off and hair plastered to her head looks like SUN XIEZHI! >.< The sliding down was pretty fun... Although I got some mud and sand and whatever into my nose. (I just cleared it yesterday night when I bathed) But then Ger didnt get to experience it. AWW. Nevermind! I played everything just for her! XD
Then had rafting which was fun too! XD I like rafting. Especially the sensation of being pulled back to shore! YAY. The food there was quite okay. At least it made us FOOD JUNKIES full. Really. Then had this night hike which actually wasnt really scary or what. Not shiok at all. BOO. Song session was fun! All of us were going damn high. XD
SHOWER. Oh yes! The stream of the shower I got on the first day was like so darn small and irritating! Didnt really manage to wash myself that cleanly. Nevermind. Made up for it on the second day cos the stream of the shower was much much better! XD But the lousy toilet facilities made my skin irritation (Axema?) worse. BOO.
The next day! (Saturday) Me and Calista woke the HUT 16 people up! WHOO HOO. We were like BANGBANGBANG on the door and going, "Wake up people!" And the 16 people started complaining. =D But they did get up eventually! And I love them lah. <3 Yep after the NASI LEMAK breakfast we had KAYAKING!
Kayaking was oh so darn fun! MEL LOVES KAYAKING! But my triceps are like suan cos of the incessant hard paddling! Which is also fun haha! Okay then had Rock climbing! Esther and Tessa (My two fellow CUCUMBERS!) are so darn good at it! So MAN! XD Then had Abseiling and Zipline! And I overcomed my fear of heights cos of Abseiling... I feel so darn brave now! Abseiling is maybe one of my best memories about this camp! XD
After lunch had CRC! Once again, THREEWISDOM rocks cos almost all of us did at least one of the three! XD Then had ARCHERY! Ohman I love archery so much too! I like to PEI YANG GAN QING with the board haha! I think that is like so fun! XD Then prepared for Campfire!
Dinner. Then CAMPFIRE! The whole YELLOWBADGE got so darn high! And I still have Zhuwei's "I'm the lampost!" running in my head. XD And Josy won the Yellowbadgestnicks idol! YAY. Threewisdom! <33 Had supper... Then showered... Then slept. XD
The next day had breakfast and area cleaning... Then had SARIMBUN HIKE AND OUTDOOR COOKING! It was like fun! Cos I got TANNED! Mel likes being tanned! XD Then went back to school loh. XD
So yep I watched HANAKIMI as soon as I got home... Then bathed a FORTYFIVEMINUTE shower! And slept. Until this morning. XD
OH YES. My Nanxuezhang is becoming more and more like LIANGSINAN from Hanakimi! XD Adee Cal Ger agree with me!
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I will miss the times when we cheered each other on for everything!I will miss the times when we worked together as a team!I will miss the times when we bonded like siao!I will miss the times when we sang loudly and cheered!I will miss the times when we got so amused by the trainers!I will miss the times when we complained about the showers!I will miss the times when we mass stripped!I will miss the times when we banged on each other's hut doors!I will miss the times when we kayaked together and tried to keep in time!I will miss the times when we climbed the rock wall and cheered for each other!I will miss the times when we overcomed our fears of heights and abseiled!I will miss the times when we ate together and talked about everything!I will miss the times when we arched together and bullied the trainer!I will miss the times when we all got high together during the campfire!I will miss the times when we sang to keep ourselves entertained!I will miss the times when we cooked our own food outdoors!I will miss the times when we cheered and booed OP!I will miss the times when we sipped milo and chatted!I LOVE THREE WISDOM!I LOVE THE BOMB!I LOVE GER!I LOVE CAL!I LOVE NANXUEZHANG!I LOVE ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS!I LOVE STUDENT LEADERSHIP CAMP!----
ST NICKS OI!
OI!
OKAY!
ALRIGHT!
WELL DONE!
EXCELLENT!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog one day!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog!
mm hmm! goes the little green frog one day!
and they all go mm hmm ahhh!
and they all go SHALALALALA!
SHALALALALA!
SHALALALALA!
and they all go SHALALALALA!
and they all go mm hmm ahhh!
how are we feeling?!
kedeba!
kedebu!
kedeba!
kedebu!
I FEEL GOOD!
NANANANANA!
melodycopyrighted
8:26 PM
